I have noticed that when I am slipping into a sinful life, my prayer life dries up. This has always been the case. Throughout my entire life I have gone through periods of intense prayer and intense sin. Sin destroys the prayer life. Of course, God, in his all powerful mercy, will always help us to overcome sin. We must, however, want and ask for his help with that. Recently I have been falling back into old sins. As a result I have felt the distance from God. It is frightening. Anxiety increases. I know how sin destroys.

Life in Christ is so far better than life in sin it is a wonder that I continually fall back into sin. These are my choices though, the choice for selfishness over love of God. I can only ask God once again to help me get back on the right path.